10 Years and Counting

God has shown to be true, faithful and still willing to perform miracles! We celebrated our 10 year anniversary. We were married and with in a few short months destroyed all that was sacred in our marriage. With pride, selfishness, unforgiving, hurtful words, record of wrongs, expectations, demands, cold shoulders, and hateful thought patterns. Our marital vital signs were basically flat lined! So "what happened?" you ask. Jesus Christ. We went to marriage counseling at our church and they had a sneaky policy. They made us go through the Word of God and look at ourselves. THEN apply what it said to each other. The same power that raised Lazarus from the dead, was doing the same thing 2000 years later. I used to pride myself in how much I "loved" my husband. which somehow led to a dead marriage. But when I read God's definition of love, not proud, doesn't hold a record of wrong, seeks not it's own, patient and kind, covers a multitude of sin, hopes all things, endures all things, never fails. I was broken. His kindness compared to mine, it did lead to repentance. I no longer wanted to fix a marriage, I wanted to know Jesus outside a "Sunday school class". I wanted new life. We have learned God's love is perfect... when we are not. It won't fail... when we do. For this is real love, not that we loved God first but while we yet sinners he sent His son to die for us and take away our sins. We can love each other first because God has shown us to offer forgiveness for wrongs, and grace for the moment, until the next moment. One of my favorite songs from Sonic Flood proclaims:

What can I say?What can I do?

What can I bring to offer You?

There is no gold

No precious pearl

Nothing on earth that compares to You

Lord here I stand with empty hands

I will exalt the one who lifted me

Out of the miry clay to heights of eagles wings

Words cannot express

All I know is this

You've changed me

You've changed me!

I can remember how I used to be

I was so bound but now I'm free

I will exalt the one who lifted me

I've never known a father like You

A love that is strong

Gentle and true

You draw me close

Just like a child

Safe in Your arms

There is no doubt

This is my place

This is my way!

So here we are made new, and walking it out. Day to day. Experiencing the death and the resurrection of Jesus Christ. To die to ourselves for the benefit of others. And doing so by the power of the Holy Spirit. There is no way to love that way out side of God's grace and power. There just isn't. I never cared about anyone other than myself until I was reborn. If you don't have this kind of love in your heart like I thought I did but really didn't. All you have to do is ask for Jesus to be your Lord and Savior with His forgiveness. It will be given. God has no favorites and make no mistake, you were on His heart on that cross. If you have never felt this kind of love by anyone. Know that God does. He showed how much He loved you in His Son. You are loved with a perfect love, it never fails, and it's just waiting to cover every sin. And you too will be changed!

And by this the world will know you are my disciples, when you love one another.

~Jesus, Son of God and Savior offered to all

Grace (undeserved gift) and peace (a state of mutual harmony) to you!